Love in a hating way [closed]

Is there a word (or a phrase at least) that means to love in a hating way (hatefully, execrably) ?

There is "Love–hate relationship" but it is more like a psychological term. I'm looking for a "noun" or "verb" mainly.

I like "brawling love", because I like quoting Shakespeare.

He was neither the first nor the last to discuss relationships combining love and hate (nor was that his only time), so there are in fact thousands of different phrases describing it. So many in fact that I'd avoid set phrases that have been used before; see if this tired old trope can be made fresh again!

Ambivalence To have two conflicting emotions simultaneously.