A word for feeling simultaneously happy & sad

Solution 1:

Bittersweet:

  • producing or expressing a mixture of pain and pleasure: a movie with a bittersweet ending.
  • pleasant but tinged with sadness.
  • a bittersweet smile.

(TFD)

Solution 2:

While somewhat broader than happy/sad, you could say ambivalent.

Having mixed feelings or contradictory ideas about something or someone:

Some loved her, some hated her, few were ambivalent about her.

Solution 3:

The dictionary on my Mac defines rueful as

expressing sorrow or regret, especially in a wry or humorous way: she gave a rueful grin

which fits OP's sentence quite well.

Solution 4:

Melancholic! Bittersweet more exact.

Solution 5:

Not exactly what the OP's looking for but tragicomic also describes both happy and sad feelings at the same time.

Tragicomic (adj): Something that is tragicomic is both sad and amusing at the same time.

Example: This was a tragicomic story of human frailty.

— Collins dictionary

Or ambivalent.

Ambivalent (adj): Having mixed feelings or contradictory ideas about something or someone.

Example: an ambivalent attitude to Europe.

— Lexico