The mirror in which we "see" our wretchedness?
You could try
“ ... in which I admit ...”,
”... in which I confess to ...”,
or “... in which I face up to ...” {which has overtones of intending to do something as a consequence}
or “face ...” {which is a more passive acceptance of what you see}
All are predicated on your already knowing how wretched you are, combined with the moment of perception and honest acceptance of it.